Probably everything written there reflected how I felt during my crazy skin periods.
I’ll just like to add on to the issue of pain. Constant pain.
It is something that is hard to describe to others. Overtime, I just tell people the honest truth “I don’t know how to tell you”. The usual response is empathetic. There is really no point to explain the pain, because even if they understand in words, they don’t feel it. There is thus, no way they are able to fully understand. Unless you are a TSW sufferer.
It is like what pain did to Dr. House, if you watched the series. Even worse. 1000x worse. You lose your sanity and logical reasoning. You lose mobility. You lose friends. You lose your career. You lose what is effectively your skin, your projected self. You lose so much and there is a point when not wanting to live becomes a very valid and reasonable option. Sounds dramatic. No kidding. This sort of pain is what torturers use to break them down. I’ll bet 100% that any normal people experiencing this level of pain, the duration, the intensity will break down too. This is a guaranteed bet. This changes your life, permanently.
Which is why there is a strong emotional connection when I read blogs of fellow TSW sufferers. We go through the same hell. We understand each others language.